I recently talked about gifts over at Romance Roundtable. In my discussion it kind of came out that for many years I didn’t know what my gifts were, or if I had any at all. But that didn’t mean the desire wasn’t there.
I seems for as long as I can remember that I’ve wanted to write. I wrote poems and songs in high school (but did’t most girls). As I became an adult and looked back at my desire I shoved it aside as a ‘normal’ teenage activity.
There are many things I desired over the course of my lifetime, writing was just one of many. Once, when I was in Arizona, I saw a person hang-glide off a mountain, and thought wow! I want to do that. It was no different with sky diving, and white river rafting. I guess my desires were all about adventure. I’ve since decided I’d like to keep my feet firm on the ground, although I wouldn’t mind the white river rafting. One desire that has never changed is the desire to see the majestic beauty God has given us throughout the world. I use to think that God had a twisted sense of humor when it came to me. You see, I love the ocean. The rolling waves soothing my nerves, the salty spray bathing my skin, yada, yada. . . But I am landlocked. I began to think my desires were outside of the will of God. I’ve since started looking at the landscape around me. This non-descript, so-called, flatland that I live in is filled with wondrous characteristics. I’ve spent a long time looking outward, wanting something outside my boundaries, that I never saw the beauty in my own back yard. Somewhere along the way that all changed.
And let me tell you, the characteristics of my own backyard are indescribable. I can only imagine what went through the minds of those settlers as they halted their wagons and pitched their tents, at least that is the romantic in me. The realistic in me knows it had to be hard to enter into a wild, untamed land full of unknowns. The realistic in me knows that although many came with a specific reason to settle here, many too, just could not continue on the road west.
The weary traveler looking upon this wide open space, may have said, “Will this do, Martha?” And she may have wiped the sweat from her brow as she bobbled one of her many young children on her hip. “Looks as good as any, Fred.”
These weary travelers had a desire in their hearts, not so much for a better life, but for a life of their own. They knew the realities, or at least some of them, of toiling the land, but that didn’t change that they had the desire to be land owners. Others had no idea what lay in store for them.
But when they looked up from their hard labors and saw God’s wondrous canvas. . . . can you imagine the abundant joy that filled their hearts knowing God cared enough to paint a picture just for them?
Yes, I’ve seen many an evening like this when the landscape comes alive. As beautiful as the photograph is, it doesn’t show how the grasses are colored with the multi-hued purples, greens, and golds. Or how the prairies seem to come alive with their dots of pinks and yellows and swatches of browns.
I wanted to experience the beauty of God’s world, but I had ignored the very gift given me in my own backyard. Now, I can’t seem to take my eyes from it.
I love the Psalms, perhaps because they seem to be written by man seeking out a relationship with God in all ways, not just as Lord and his servant, but as companions. It’s like a walk through the flower-scented garden on a warm peaceful evening with a beloved friend.
Psalm 37:3-4 Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
For me, this is saying that the desires in my heart were given by the Lord himself. If I trust in him, if I commune with him, He’ll bless me, even if it is only for my eyes to be opened to see what has been in front of me for so long.
That second, lovely, photograph was taken by Judd Patterson, if you’d like to see more of his work go here.